13 weeks

alhamdulillah ya Allah, ya Rahman, ya Rahim...

13 blissful weeks and 4 days. another 3 days for us to finally reach 2trimester.

terima kasih Allah!

12

alhamdulillah, we finally in week 12. terima kasih Allah!

and thanks to Lady mira for sending me the baby list.

going to midvalley for the exhibition today.

daaa

Threaten

"threaten pregnancy which could lead to miscarriage"

ok. seyes aku takut. alkisah, semalam, perut rasa sakit. mcm nk period punye sakit. so en suami insist utk call doc. lepas call doc, die suh datang clinic immediately. cuak nk mampus!

rupenye, aku sedang mengalami kencing yg teramat kotor. sbbnye, tak kencing2. mau tak kencing, minum air muntah, minum air muntah. in the end, aku tak minum langsung. dan terus dehydrated. kemudian kencing kotor. padan muka aku. tp kesian kat baby.

doc kate lagik. kencing kotor jgn main2 dlm pregnacy. sbb kita tatau setakat mana infection tu telah berlaku. in my case, kencing aku sgt kotor yg die kene hantar pegi hospital check amende yg telah infect sampai aku rasa sakit tu. bayaran utk check air kencing aje RM95. whattt?

tp alhamdullillah, baby sihat. alhamdullilah. syukur ya Allah. biarlah aku sakit, lindungilah anak dalam kandunganku. ok, masuk2 je pintu, doc terus suh baring, takde chit-chat2 dah. sbb die risaukan baby. owh, wat ultrasound perut, bukan vagina lagik. (seb bek aku tak bukak sluar lagik. blush*). yg tak bestnye, tempat kene scan tu, btl2 kat parut operation aritu. sedikit perit la.

tp again, alhamdullillah, dapat tgk baby dgn jelas. 3.35cm now. dah ada tangan dan kaki. dan tangan dia sgt cergas bergerak2 mcm melambai2. doc siap kate, hah tu baby lambai kat daddy, assalamualaikum daddy. (ok, die tak sebut mummy langsung sbb die mara mummy tak minum air sampai kencing kotor).

again, a little confusion about the 'age' of pregnancy. kalo ikutkan, rabu lepas, baru masuk 9 week. tp semalam, according to the imaging, already reach 10w 1d. again, doc kate, ade discrepancy sket. (ok, makcik pelik tp takot nk tanye banyak sbb doc tak mmg tgh mara kan). so kalo according to the last date of first period, by right, we should be in 11 weeks. (see, again the 2 weeks discrepancy).

tp kata2 doc yg paling menakutkan.

"threaten pregnancy which could lead to miscarriage"

sumpah aku minum air setiap masa. owh, dapat ubat muntah kot bontot. hah amik ko. masuk kot bontot, pastu minum air sampai kembung (in fact skang terasa nk kencing). tp, perut masih sakit. iskk.

ya Allah, kau lindungi lah anak dalam kandungan ku ini. dan kau berikanlah aku kesihatan sepanjang kehamilan ini. sesungguhnya, Engkaulah tuhan yang maha pemurah lagik maha penyayang.

amin.

Week 9

alhamdullilah, we have reach week 9. another 3weeks to finally finished the 1st trimester.

insyallah, tanpa sebarang complication. 

owh, muntah2 tu adalah benda biasa. walaupun en suami mahu amik ubat bontot (utk tahan muntah), aku tetap tanak. seksa la sebenarnya ubat tahan muntah itu. 

*ok, sape penah amik, sila cite sket? ubat muntah yg masuk kot bontot tu*

 still a long way to go. 

Ya Allah Ya Tuhan ku, peliharalah anak dalam kandungan ku ini.

amin..

8 weeks

we are now officially in week 8, today. officially!

kalau sebelum ni doc kate kalo ikut calculation from last period, we supposed to be in week 10, tp mengikut scan, it shows that we are in week 8. in which, the scan pic simply show a small lump (tak berapa nk nampak mcm baby lagik) with the size of 1.35cm but, the heartbeat! omg, the heartbeat! sgt kuat! dupdupdupdupdup. masyallah! alhamdullillah tuhan utk nikmat ini. first time dgr heartbeat, mulut aku melopong selopong2 nya. alhamdullilahh. en suami siap kata, lepas ni die nk rakam, nk wat ringtone.

tapi laa, baru week 8 eh? rasa mcm dah lama je morning sickness ni. dan meaning, en suami terpaksa bersabar 1-2 bulan lagik la. doc pun kate "nk jadi daddy kene sabar". mmg kesian kat en suami since we get pregnant, aku tak mampu nk uruskan rumah tangga. nk masak jauh sekalik la kan.

owh, btw, the due date shall be on 18th june 2012. semoga semuanya berjalan lancar.

amin

dan dapat 2nd pic of our lil caliph. which, belum upload mana2 lagik. sbbnya balik umah, aku terus solat dan tidor. sebab tenaga sudey abes. mcm tayar kereta pancit. lansung tak bole nk jalan. hurmmm

Muntah

muntah tu macam dah sebati. makan, diam kejap dalam 20min, muntah. kuar semua yg makan.

mlm semalam, muntah, yg menyakitkan, tak tahu sbb keadaan muntah yg buat sakit kot? duduk kat jamban duduk sambil muntah kat lantai. keluar sampai makanan lunch. coney dog A&W. menjilat jari? tak. sakit, berbanding muntah kat sinki. tp ketidak laratan utk berdiri, terpaksa muntah dalam toilet. dan seperti biasa, sewaktu en suami sedang enak/mahu makan. kesian dia.

tak. sumpah aku tak mengeluh. utk anak, apa sahaja aku sanggup. cuma, mengenangkan hari ini terpaksa masuk ofis (nk mc, thn ni terlalu byk mc. nk cuti, bos dah warning tak boleh cuti. dan aku mcm wtf?)

takut. nk makan solid food. serius takut. tp kalau tak makan, badan lemah. kalau tak kesian kat diri sndrik, wajib kesian dekat baby kan? dilema.

mereka kata, sampai 4bulan je. insyallah, semoga lagi cepat dari itu morning sickness ini berakhir. owh, perlu mengadu dekat doc selasa ini. walaupun aku tau jawapan sarcastic itu "nk anak kan, u sabar je la sikit sayang."

ouch.

dan lunch arini, bliss satu botol kecik. owh sangat bliss!

dear bos, since u tak bagi i amik cuti? i nk mc i takut record i buruk, i tido je la kat surau bole? :P

Hari ini...

...lebih baik drp semalam.

masih bercuti. masih menikmati rehat secukupnya sebelum masuk keje esok dan menghadapi keje yg berlambak. aish, sgt tidak suka!

masih lembik, masih tak larat berdiri, masih malas, masih terasa mahu muntah, masih lapar tp tak tahu mahu makan apa, masih juga bernyawa, masih juga bernafas, dan masih juga mengandung.

alhamdulillah.syukur yg Allah.

ya Allah ya Tuhanku, 

Kau kuatkanlah semangatku demi anak dalam kandunganku ini. Kau berilah aku kekuatan untuk mengatasi segala ketidakselesaan ini. Sesungguhnya Engkaulah Tuhan yang maha pemurah lagi maha mengasihani.

Amin, amin ya rabbil alamin

Semalam

semalam adalah hari paling teruk (ok, time demam tu pun teruk, ni kira same teruk la) utk morning sickness yg melanda. imagine masuk meeting, bos tgh bercakap, bole pandang muke die sambil tekup mulut ngn tisu sbb nk termuntah? haihhh, seb bek bos ok. die paham. dan semalam jugak dgn selamba masuk ofis kul 8.45pg sbb tak larat sgt.

dan malam tu, semua yg makan, keluar balik. ni first time muntah semua yg makan balik. seb bek amik cuti arini ngn esok. dan semalam jugak, balik drp jumpe member, ttibe perut memulas tak hengat dunia (sbb angin) sbb da kul 10mlm tp tak makan2 lagik, memaksa en suami bawa kete laju2 dan carik toilet. haiyooo... lembek terus semalam time sampai rumah. nk naik tingkat 5 pulak tu. tinggi.

owh, semalam jugak, aku come clean with all TTC friends yg lain pasal pregnancy. sbbnya, aku rasa, ini masa yg sesuai kot. lagik pun, derang yg banyak bagi sokongan, dan aku rasa tak fair kalo keep on hiding it from them.

tho ikutkan, aku nk bgtau on 1st nov, as doc kate appointment 1st nov tu, br kita boleh tau bila due date (yg tepat). so br boleh predict what week i am now. but as far as the doc concern, i am in week 8. tho bile aku check ngn pregnancy calendar, im in week 7. tp the ultrasound pic shows that im only in week 6 (judging by the baby's size. she's so small yet seeing the heartbeat certainly bring happiness tears in my eyes).  bila tanya doc, she simply said, the size doesnt matter, what matters now is that she is growing up healthy and has heartbeat. alhamdullillah. itu je yg penting kan.

owh, im craving for the bbq chicken only served in air asia flight. en suami dah tepuk dahi dah. gile? dan jugak, tingin sangat nk makan megi dan cheezel. hohoho

i found my morning sickness is no more morning but has become all-day-sickness. this morning, i could barely open my eyes as i felt all my energy has been drain out hence, off to sleep i went. slept for almost 2 hours then woke up just in time for our luncheon at KL Tower. no camwhoring as i am not feeling well. no eat-what-ever-u-could as well.

the evening, i managed to cook 2 dishes for dear husband and while waiting for him to get home, again, the energy are no more with me. plus, i think i am having a fever. right after magrib prayer, i went to rest only to be waken up by dear hubby for dinner. dont have the energy to eat let alone to hold the spoon, dear hubby have to fed me. then off i went to bed.

since the fever is quite high, and i refused to take medication as im afraid it shall affected the baby, dear hubby placed 3 fans in front of me and have to dap me with cold cloth the whole night. i felt so hot that i have to hold the cold pack in my palm to reduce the hotness.

and yes, i do felt blessed to have such considerate and loving husband. thank you sayang for being there with me. i dont know what to do if you werent there.

i love u so much sayang.

The Moment of Truth

Questions for doctor:

1. Is the pregnancy vital?
2. How to reduce the morning sickness?

arrived at the clinic at 3.30pm only to be treated at 6.30pm. as usual.  and it is the moment of truth we have been waiting.

the answer for our questions:

1. yes! alhamdullillah! syukur ya Allah!
2. i was given medication to reduce the nausea (tho i did not take any as im afraid it shall affected my baby). and the doc told me to adapt to all the uneasiness as it shall continues until birth. and that dear hubby to help me in doing whatever i cant do.

the doc said that our pregnancy is about 7weeks, however, the v.ultrasound said that it is only 5w1d. but not to worry as it is normal for the fetus to be smaller than the week it supposed to be. whatever it is, the pregnancy is vital and our baby is growing up healthy. amin!

*our first picture of our first baby*

our next appointment shall be on 1st november 2011 in which, on that date, the exact due date and conception date can be determine. and i am yet waiting for my 'buku pink'. 

Morning Sickness

tho im loving every minutes of my pregnancy, i  didnt know that morning sickness is going to be bad. 

and i could not understand why people called it morning sickness, as i believe it not only in the morning but throughtout the day and night.

it felt like the energy has been drained off, which i could only lie down and sleep while regenerate the energy. it was like one second i was up and running doing all works and the next minute i was so tired that i could not even move my fingers.

im not complaining. i could do anything just to finally be blessed with a child and of course the morning sickness are bittersweet. tho i realize that being pregnant has turned my hubby into more loving and caring husband and yes, the child has made us even closer.

but hey, thats what pregnancy are all about right?

Week 4

to be honest, i am confuse which week am i now.
last visit to the gynea (last monday) i believe i heard she said that according to the scan we are now 4 weeks 1 day. but calculating from my last period, it says that i am in week 5. shall confirm this next visit (12/10)


What is going on with baby?

Baby is approximately 1 mm long (about the size of a poppy seed) and looks sort of like a tadpole. Your ovary contains a tiny corpus luteum which is what is left of the follicle your egg was being housed in. The corpus luteum will produce progesterone until the placenta takes over progesterone production around 10 weeks after conception (when you are about 12 weeks pregnant). Right now the placenta is still forming and the cells that will become your baby are dividing at a rapid pace.

Mrs A adds: i remember the gynea said that the baby IS about 1mm long. how small is that? yet i didnt see it during the ultrasound. i simply cant see anything, tho daddy said he did see u. silly mummy!

What is going on with Mom?

You may be feeling some symptoms of early pregnancy by now or you may not notice any changes yet. You may feel more tired, your breasts may feel tender, you may notice that you are urinating more frequently, or you may feel like you are just about to start your period. A lot of newly pregnant moms, in fact, think that they are not pregnant because they feel like they are about to start their periods. Early pregnancy symptoms often feel similar to PMS symptoms. You may feel bloated and be worried about slight cramping but this is normal for early pregnancy.

 Mrs A adds: i still cant believe that i am pregnant. maybe that there are no changes yet. and i am thankful that i am one of those whom did not experience any morning sickness. alhamdullilah. tho i did took MC yesterday as i dont felt well. it was like all power & will has been sucked out from my body and leave me sleeping one whole day.

3rd October 2011

on 25th September, i was down to see a stain at my panty. I was like, no more hopes this month. 

however, it was only a small stain. no menses followed. which was weird.

tho i dont really mind as my AF simply come and go as she please, for example, last August, my AF came 2days after my first stain.

yet, its already 3rd October. 

at first i dont want to have UPT as i dont want to get crush if it shows only 1 line. u know the feeling of -ve. how useless u think u really are.

but, i did bought 2 UPT and yet doesnt hv the courage to test it.

after finished making dinner, while taking my bath, i tested.

and guess what it showed?

 alhamdulillah! yet, i seem not to believe it and tested again. this time it still shows 2lines, but more fainter.

i felt like shouting, Alhamdullilah!!!!

and immediately i woke my husband up and dragged him to the toilet to share the big news.

when he see the +ve UPT, he was like, 

"Apa maksud satu terang 2 line, satu lagik tak terang? abg tak pecaya. abg nk tido"

in which i was like slapping his face hard. how could he! but the reason why he said that was that he was afraid that we shall undergo the same thing before. *see my other blog*

so at 7.30 pm, off we went to see the gynea and was only being called in at 12.00am!

and yes, the doc confirm the pregnancy. tho she did said

"according to this scan, you are 4 weeks 1day pregnant. however, we shall wait until week 6 and check whether the pregnancy is vital or not"

we are pregnant!

alhamdullilah.

tho i am afraid hearing those words, it didnt stop me from having sujud syukur.

aku bersyukur padaMu ya Allah atas segala rezeki yang Engkau berikan. Kau berkatilah kami dan peliharalah anak dalam kandungan ku ini dari segala anasir jahat dan syaitan yg direjam. Kau peliharalah anak dalam kandunganku ini agar dia membesar, sihat tubuh badan dan akal fikiran, lahir kedunia dengan selamat, hidup dan membesar dan dapat menjaga kami di hari tua kami. Dan Kau peliharalah dia supaya menjadi anak yang soleh dan solehah. 

aminnnn, ya rabbil alamin.