Cakap

bercakap hebat tapi takde hasil ibarat kencing berbaring
- makin lama makin basah dan hancing

Marah

When one of you becomes angry while standing, he should sit down. If the anger leaves him, well and good; otherwise he should lie down. 
- Sunan of Abu Dawood, Narrated Abu Dharr, r.a.

marah perlu kalau betul dah ada salah, 
apa yg tak perlu, cara marah yg tak betul
- yang mana marah itu sendiri menggambarkan kedangakalan akal seseorang walau tinggi manapun pelajaran dia.

kesian.

belajar tinggi-tinggi,
tapi waktu marah,
akal ada di tapak kaki.

Perempuan Tanpa Empahty

aku sbaner dah lama sgt berbulu dgn bos. sejak zaman mengandungkan hamza. sblm ni mmg ramai staff2 lain yg berbulu, tp aku chill je. prinsip aku senang, kau tak kacau hidup aku, aku tak kacau hidup kau.

tp, time mengandungkan hamza tu, aku akui aku mmg teruk gile morning sickness, bape banyak mc, masuk hospital mmg ade pun. mmg tak larat, tp gigih gak masuk meting bagai. tanggujawab kan. sedangkan dean pun punyela baik, setiap kali nk bagi kerja first thing mesti die akan tanya, how r u today?

time discussion, ade perempuan-tanpa-empahty, dean, aku and few colleagues, utk halang rasa nk muntah, aku mmg bawak bekal kurma n biskut kering. time discussion aku makan je sbb nk buang rasa loya tu. tau die bole kata apa

i anak 5. tak pernah pun morning sickness. siap bole basuh kereta lagik.

mcm wtf tak? aku pandang die, dan selamba kata, good for you la sbb tak rasa morning sickness.

ok, itu dlu. ko igt sekarang die dah berubah? hahahaharapan!

jumaat lepas, telinga hamza bernanah balik. mmg malam tu die tido menjerit2 menangis. sakit gamaknya. tak bole jadik ni, taknak bawak pegi paed dah. aku nk terus je pegi ENT specialist. kesian weh hamza kecik lagik tp sakit. igt nk bawak sabtu, tp dr prince court sume tak available. so ade sowang kakak ni bgtau die bawak anak die pegi pusrawi, rupenye sabtu tak bukak. so nak taknak, kene bawak jumaat gak la.

mintak izin dekat bos, nk bawak anak pegi hospital.

instead of tanya anak sakit apa, die bole cakap "abes sape nk amik minute meeting kejap lagik?"

dan muke aku terus mcm, WTF perempuan! terus mulut aku lancang "org lain kan banyak!"

tak tunggu lama, aku blah terus amik hamza dan bawak pegi pusrawi. ermmm, charges mcm prince court je, might as well pegi prince court. sungguh! pusrawi dah mcm hospital gomen. clinic pakar die tak menampakkan cam klinik pakar. ok, itu lain entry la aku cite. sbb entry ni pasal perempuan-tanpa-empahty.

seriously, dia tidak menampakkan ciri2 boss. i mean, instead of saying those words, bole kata, semua preparation utk meeting dah settle? kan ke sejuk sikit hati aku?

eiiiii. berbulu tul ngn perempuan cam ni. nk kate takde anak. 5 org anak die. time anak die yg dah umo 20 tu operate appendix, masuk keje kul 2 sbb nk jaga anak kat umah. umo 20 u olls! bukan 11 bulan mcm hamza!

eiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!

boss mcm ni aku rasa sungguh tidak berguna.

rasa cam nk menjerit, pencen je la woiii perempuan!

Ikhlas, Tanggungjawab, Gaji

maaf, sy bekerja bukan kerana ikhlas, tp kerana gaji. dan tanggungjawab

jgn terkejut.

ini reality. kalo betul anda bekerja kerana ikhlas, kalau ttiba ada pengumuman keluar kata, maaf, gaji bulan ini tiada, tp anda ttap perlu bekerja kerana ikhlas, adakah anda akan datang kerja?

owh, aku tak datang kerja dah. malah terus carik kerja lain.

so yes, sy bekerja kerana gaji. bukan kerana ikhlas. kerana dibayar. sebab dibayar, maka kerja itu adalah tanggungjawab sy. faham tak konsep disitu?

jadi, istilah bekerja kerana ikhlas, sila jangan sogokkan dihadapan muka saya kalau mahu bagi kerja yg tidak ada kena mengena.

"she should open heartily accept all responsible given to her"

perghhh. statement.

does it really matter whether i accept it open heartly or not when i do finished the job within the stipulated time and put all my effort in it? there is no such thing as open heartily in working. a responsible is a responsible in which you have to bear all the consequences for the choice you made and action you did. thats responsibility.  it does not matter whether you accept it open heartily or not, if the task given was done effectively and efficiently. its the end results that matters. THE END RESULTS ARE WHAT MATTERS.

from the ETDP Sharing Session just now, i learnt that i am a ESTP person (Extrovert, Sensing, Thinking, Perception) and that ive exceeded the JG41 marks (even the JG44, i should be JD48... owh my, im so flattered.. hahahhaha, nah just kidding.). the sharing session went well in which i accepted and acknowledged all the traits and report they made about me. and no, i did not have anything else to add as i agreed with their report.

everything went smoothly. (no, i was not over the moon about the JG48, its not like MSD shall upgrade me to 44 pun. ) when my boss said "she should open heartily accept all responsible given to her"

which bring us to my upper entry in this post.

maaf, sy bekerja bukan kerana ikhlas, tp kerana gaji. dan tanggungjawab