Threaten

"threaten pregnancy which could lead to miscarriage"

ok. seyes aku takut. alkisah, semalam, perut rasa sakit. mcm nk period punye sakit. so en suami insist utk call doc. lepas call doc, die suh datang clinic immediately. cuak nk mampus!

rupenye, aku sedang mengalami kencing yg teramat kotor. sbbnye, tak kencing2. mau tak kencing, minum air muntah, minum air muntah. in the end, aku tak minum langsung. dan terus dehydrated. kemudian kencing kotor. padan muka aku. tp kesian kat baby.

doc kate lagik. kencing kotor jgn main2 dlm pregnacy. sbb kita tatau setakat mana infection tu telah berlaku. in my case, kencing aku sgt kotor yg die kene hantar pegi hospital check amende yg telah infect sampai aku rasa sakit tu. bayaran utk check air kencing aje RM95. whattt?

tp alhamdullillah, baby sihat. alhamdullilah. syukur ya Allah. biarlah aku sakit, lindungilah anak dalam kandunganku. ok, masuk2 je pintu, doc terus suh baring, takde chit-chat2 dah. sbb die risaukan baby. owh, wat ultrasound perut, bukan vagina lagik. (seb bek aku tak bukak sluar lagik. blush*). yg tak bestnye, tempat kene scan tu, btl2 kat parut operation aritu. sedikit perit la.

tp again, alhamdullillah, dapat tgk baby dgn jelas. 3.35cm now. dah ada tangan dan kaki. dan tangan dia sgt cergas bergerak2 mcm melambai2. doc siap kate, hah tu baby lambai kat daddy, assalamualaikum daddy. (ok, die tak sebut mummy langsung sbb die mara mummy tak minum air sampai kencing kotor).

again, a little confusion about the 'age' of pregnancy. kalo ikutkan, rabu lepas, baru masuk 9 week. tp semalam, according to the imaging, already reach 10w 1d. again, doc kate, ade discrepancy sket. (ok, makcik pelik tp takot nk tanye banyak sbb doc tak mmg tgh mara kan). so kalo according to the last date of first period, by right, we should be in 11 weeks. (see, again the 2 weeks discrepancy).

tp kata2 doc yg paling menakutkan.

"threaten pregnancy which could lead to miscarriage"

sumpah aku minum air setiap masa. owh, dapat ubat muntah kot bontot. hah amik ko. masuk kot bontot, pastu minum air sampai kembung (in fact skang terasa nk kencing). tp, perut masih sakit. iskk.

ya Allah, kau lindungi lah anak dalam kandungan ku ini. dan kau berikanlah aku kesihatan sepanjang kehamilan ini. sesungguhnya, Engkaulah tuhan yang maha pemurah lagik maha penyayang.

amin.

Muntah

muntah tu macam dah sebati. makan, diam kejap dalam 20min, muntah. kuar semua yg makan.

mlm semalam, muntah, yg menyakitkan, tak tahu sbb keadaan muntah yg buat sakit kot? duduk kat jamban duduk sambil muntah kat lantai. keluar sampai makanan lunch. coney dog A&W. menjilat jari? tak. sakit, berbanding muntah kat sinki. tp ketidak laratan utk berdiri, terpaksa muntah dalam toilet. dan seperti biasa, sewaktu en suami sedang enak/mahu makan. kesian dia.

tak. sumpah aku tak mengeluh. utk anak, apa sahaja aku sanggup. cuma, mengenangkan hari ini terpaksa masuk ofis (nk mc, thn ni terlalu byk mc. nk cuti, bos dah warning tak boleh cuti. dan aku mcm wtf?)

takut. nk makan solid food. serius takut. tp kalau tak makan, badan lemah. kalau tak kesian kat diri sndrik, wajib kesian dekat baby kan? dilema.

mereka kata, sampai 4bulan je. insyallah, semoga lagi cepat dari itu morning sickness ini berakhir. owh, perlu mengadu dekat doc selasa ini. walaupun aku tau jawapan sarcastic itu "nk anak kan, u sabar je la sikit sayang."

ouch.

dan lunch arini, bliss satu botol kecik. owh sangat bliss!

dear bos, since u tak bagi i amik cuti? i nk mc i takut record i buruk, i tido je la kat surau bole? :P

Semalam

semalam adalah hari paling teruk (ok, time demam tu pun teruk, ni kira same teruk la) utk morning sickness yg melanda. imagine masuk meeting, bos tgh bercakap, bole pandang muke die sambil tekup mulut ngn tisu sbb nk termuntah? haihhh, seb bek bos ok. die paham. dan semalam jugak dgn selamba masuk ofis kul 8.45pg sbb tak larat sgt.

dan malam tu, semua yg makan, keluar balik. ni first time muntah semua yg makan balik. seb bek amik cuti arini ngn esok. dan semalam jugak, balik drp jumpe member, ttibe perut memulas tak hengat dunia (sbb angin) sbb da kul 10mlm tp tak makan2 lagik, memaksa en suami bawa kete laju2 dan carik toilet. haiyooo... lembek terus semalam time sampai rumah. nk naik tingkat 5 pulak tu. tinggi.

owh, semalam jugak, aku come clean with all TTC friends yg lain pasal pregnancy. sbbnya, aku rasa, ini masa yg sesuai kot. lagik pun, derang yg banyak bagi sokongan, dan aku rasa tak fair kalo keep on hiding it from them.

tho ikutkan, aku nk bgtau on 1st nov, as doc kate appointment 1st nov tu, br kita boleh tau bila due date (yg tepat). so br boleh predict what week i am now. but as far as the doc concern, i am in week 8. tho bile aku check ngn pregnancy calendar, im in week 7. tp the ultrasound pic shows that im only in week 6 (judging by the baby's size. she's so small yet seeing the heartbeat certainly bring happiness tears in my eyes).  bila tanya doc, she simply said, the size doesnt matter, what matters now is that she is growing up healthy and has heartbeat. alhamdullillah. itu je yg penting kan.

owh, im craving for the bbq chicken only served in air asia flight. en suami dah tepuk dahi dah. gile? dan jugak, tingin sangat nk makan megi dan cheezel. hohoho

i found my morning sickness is no more morning but has become all-day-sickness. this morning, i could barely open my eyes as i felt all my energy has been drain out hence, off to sleep i went. slept for almost 2 hours then woke up just in time for our luncheon at KL Tower. no camwhoring as i am not feeling well. no eat-what-ever-u-could as well.

the evening, i managed to cook 2 dishes for dear husband and while waiting for him to get home, again, the energy are no more with me. plus, i think i am having a fever. right after magrib prayer, i went to rest only to be waken up by dear hubby for dinner. dont have the energy to eat let alone to hold the spoon, dear hubby have to fed me. then off i went to bed.

since the fever is quite high, and i refused to take medication as im afraid it shall affected the baby, dear hubby placed 3 fans in front of me and have to dap me with cold cloth the whole night. i felt so hot that i have to hold the cold pack in my palm to reduce the hotness.

and yes, i do felt blessed to have such considerate and loving husband. thank you sayang for being there with me. i dont know what to do if you werent there.

i love u so much sayang.

Morning Sickness

tho im loving every minutes of my pregnancy, i  didnt know that morning sickness is going to be bad. 

and i could not understand why people called it morning sickness, as i believe it not only in the morning but throughtout the day and night.

it felt like the energy has been drained off, which i could only lie down and sleep while regenerate the energy. it was like one second i was up and running doing all works and the next minute i was so tired that i could not even move my fingers.

im not complaining. i could do anything just to finally be blessed with a child and of course the morning sickness are bittersweet. tho i realize that being pregnant has turned my hubby into more loving and caring husband and yes, the child has made us even closer.

but hey, thats what pregnancy are all about right?